a little cycle called life

i got up at 6 today for the 1st time

in this year 2006 :D

If you are inquisitive enough to ask 'why', please contact om at om's official email addresses :D

the point is, there is this couple who are making their home. i mean this sparrow couple who are making their nest in this alcove formed by the bundle of wires precariously dangling over our electricity meter.

now today i saw that this female [the she-sparrow] was pretty agitated over something and this guy was doing this once-in-a-23-hours chirp sitting a bit distant from the nest on a wire. i really don't know what was the deal but i was getting concerned. so i called mom out and asked what could the reason be. as expected, mom didn't know and went back in asking me to let them be.

that was the exact moment when i thought that we humans can't ever let things be. i mean these sparrows make nests every spring. and then they lay eggs and then after the kids are good enough to fly off, they let them be. they never stick around with the kids, not even with partners [i guess]. don't these guys have emotions. if they don't then why do they feed their kids till they are good enough to fly, or why do they make such comfortable nests or why do they even stick around after good few night stands?

a bit complicated, can anyone simplify?

sadness is the flavour of the day

alice is sad

kid is sad too

prashant has written a sad post

i thought i should create a sad post too [doesn't make me a copy-cat, does it? :p] [excuse my slapstick people, i don't intend to offend anyone :p:p]

i guess it won't be a very bright idea if i write that there shouldn't be anything like love on planet earth [i mean platonic love leading to things, between a male and a female]. it would be too demanding for nature too.

but i sincerely hope that the feeling of wretchedness should be gone [but it is kind of sweet in its own cruel way - it doesn't sound that cruel when you are not going through it though]

but then that's the price that you have to pay [sometimes] when you are loved. thus it is so much better when you have never been loved ;)

(c) something about everyone

if you ever thought gifting your mom mothers day flowers is unfashionable and too firang, think again, she might just make you raajma chawal back to back in lunch and dinner. but if you are being a jerk of a kid, just a little extra whining and she anyways would :p

i have started with "the company of women". funny read, the first two chapters with generous quantity of flesh sprinkled throughout ;). i guess i would complete it much faster than i expected ;).

and sometimes it is pretty hard to understand girls... ummm did i say "sometimes"? :p

khushwant singh

i always thought khushwant singh is an ass. atleast some writings declared so. or maybe some of my peers [when i was young] said so. infact at one time i thought it was fashionable too to say so. so did i say so.

there was a chapter in the text book when i was in eighth standard which accentuated the feeling of baseness that people used to attach with singh.

i bought delhi. i guess it came as a surprise to me that it was written by khushwant singh. but i think i didn't pay much attention because i am always inclined to read anything about delhi in a novel form - fiction or not. when i was nearly finishing reading it i bought the company of women for the plain reason that his way of writing intermittent erotic struck me. it was in-your-face but frank and in taste, although a bit brazen.

but i didn't really realize that i had bought his another work, train to pakistan, too. i started reading it first for 2 reasons. first, prashant wanted to read it so i had to finish it to give it to him and second, i wanted to finish of the partition related apparently tragic drama before starting with the stylish and veiled erotic literature.

i just completed it. and when i completed it i wasn't sure. it was a love story. although i am not fully sure as to what the protagonist did [in the end] was for the love of the female form or for the human form.

[it was a story where i at the end was not sure if i should feel happy about feeling sad or feel sad about feeling happy]

i now have a respect for singh which is due to a person who has compassion for human life, an honesty to say things which our hypocrisy don't let us otherwise and be ourselves.

acknowledgements and pics

dear all, thank you for being such concerned about me over my last post. actually my id was hacked and someone else had made that post. it wasn't me. it was someone else :D [i have now re-gained control of my blog ;)]

and keshi you are the sweetest grain in the sugar sack of humans. thanks for such concern dear >:D<

for all those of sweet yous who have been waiting eagerly, for my rishikesh pics, like me, the pics have arrived. i mean another lot - the major one. we had 5 cameras in total. prashant's and ankur's canon SLR, and rohit's, shetty's and stranger sheetal's digital point and shoots. rohit's was sony cybershot and the other two dudes had canon's powershots.

now the stupid bragging apart, here are the pics:-

the piece of art [by prashant]:-



the best of those that i clicked [by digi P&S]



the best of those that i clicked [by SLR]:-


if you want to read more about our trip then you can

go to my version, or
go to prashant's version, or
go to rohit's version

and if you want to read none [or have already done that, then you may want to read alice's post about her trip to the same place on the same weekend] :D

treatment

i shouldn't be writing what i am going to [am thinking of] writing now. firstly because i am currently at peace with myself, with things [i am not counting career related stuff and all] and i don't have to stir the hornet's nest.

but the point is that i want to write is an indication enough that the house has been shaken. ummm, well, maybe, that was an exaggeration but something did happen. actually i happen to see some pictures. i generally don't get to see pictures of people who have had a significant impact on me somewhere in my life for long or for small duration does not matter.

this one had huge. the person was present for not more than 3 months. but the impression was huge. i mean i think about it now and give myself a wry smile when i realise that somethings happened to me as they happen to people i call kids...

i was treated the way fate wanted me to be treated. actually it was a treatment or i should not call it a treatment because if i would decide to call that an act of treatment then i won't be true to a part of myself. but i was pissed off. a part of me says that i was not being very reasonable but reasoning really went for a toss [isn't that why we call people kids because they don't do things that justify our reasoning]. and just a few pics brought me to a state where i won't mind acting childish again [making a fool of myself again - i don't say that with any sarcasm because in a way that foolishness was sweet, it was as much desired as opted for].

i am writing crap, i know; earlier i used to write much more honestly... i used to admit, i used to confess, i was happy [and maybe unhappy too] with the fact that i was utterly in love [although i still don't believe that i was. is it again the same old beloved ego? but even that has helped me somewhere].

but then why did the situation get such worse? maybe because i was very angry and i wanted to be more angry. maybe i was not getting a chance to vent my anger. yes, i wanted to be angry, and furious, and caustic at you. i wanted to scream. but that's the problem with me, i get mum when i am angry and then i cradle that anger inside myself till it makes me blind. maybe i should have met paris and screamed till my throat went hoarse. atleast that would have been better than the way i treated her ultimately, and i talk about treatment extended to me...

the 24 hours trip yesterday

i don't know why but i figured out that alice figured in more than 50% of my last 5 posts.

if you do not have an intelligent partner then your are sure to get a screwed-up dancing experience. this girl can point out 6 mistakes in 3 minutes in my moves which actually defy 12 rules of the dance form. but then there is no other female who is free and i can't ask julie [the trainer] to dance with me all the time because firstly all of them are paying her and i ain't getting any private tutions and secondly i don't want to be caught leching her by her ;) [btw, she was looking super hot today]

yesterday i went to my 3rd river-rafting trip. and i realised that it should be something like doping. you get a high for 2 to 3 minutes [15 minutes if you aggregate all the rapids] for an average thousand bucks and you have to work hard and all. but i tell you, those 15 minutes are worth those 1000 rupees, rather, much more. it is absolutely enthralling experience. you should do it atleast once in your life.

i went with a group of which i have met 70% of the people for virtually the 1st time. i guess, even the last time, the percentage of strangers was the same. strange :D

anyways, i never knew you can clock 230 kilometers in 4 hours in india when atleast 150 kilometers worth of roads of the trip are in UP. but i guess our timing had a major role to play in that. we didn't see much traffic at that time. missed alice and wondered if i'd meet her there while going. i really like the wilderness and the scary reputation that merrut-muzzaffarnagar run has got. although it is considered safer now but not long back it was considered very very risky to travel on that road at any hour of the day.

i forgot taking my camera along. the pics that have come till now don't have the great good result percentage. and, this time i came to know that different rapids have different difficulty classification in different months [volume of water]. but golf course was awesome. and i was at the hull this time for the initial and best rapids :D

it was fun. i have to do zambezi one day :D [river zambezi in zimbawbe is rated as number 1 river-rafting site in the world - rishikesh with all its thrills is in top 15]

(c) real-estate prices

have any you people experienced or noticed the sharp rise in the real estate prices nowadays?

i mean, prices are shooting like they won't stop. owners are asking anything they feel like for whatever extra piece of land that they have and want to sell.

even alice had some plans of buying a house for herself sometimes back, but i guess she has dropped the plans too, maybe because of these prices.

infact, you can buy much bigger Vacation Home Orlando based, atleast in the same price band :p

hope it rains colours :D

ever since i can remember, this is the first time that it is raining on holi. and it is chilly. i mean it would have been always so that there was a chill in the air but the chill was usually nipped by the sun. i don't think it would be the case this time.

still, i wish it suns ;) a lot.

and the girls i would want to paint with permanent dark-violet water colours would be

casa
alice
cow

:D:D:D
[although i won't mind painting half-firang keshi and izy too ;)]

HAPPY HOLI ppl
enjoi

oh okie okie guys don't scream your lungs out. you'all would get a pint of bhang and 23 grams of red gulal each too

the taj mahal

"The Tajmahal is Tejomahalay - A Hindu Temple"

does this come as a shocker to you?

there is this mr. p. n. oak, who wrote a book titled tajMahal: the true story, which is supposedly banned in India. he has given some facts which refute the historical claim that tajmahal was built by shahjahan for his lady-love and prove that it actually is a Shiv mandir.

read more about it - here. i am also including a permanent link in the side-bar.

call it religious prejudice or anything but i do believe some of the facts that he has stated.

the gone and coming weekends

i don't really like rains. they signify gloom to me. i like bright sunshine. somehow sunshine makes me happy. it seems that everyone is happy and smiling. things around me are happy. flora seems to be happy. there seems to be a profound frankness about the surroundings when it is bright.

it is a bit romantic and mushy when it is grey impregnated clouds but that does not last too long for me. i like rains but at a very certain level. unlike sunshine where i like it anyhow. rains were the reason why our river rafting trip was cancelled this weekend. i hope that rains are over as early as possible this week so that water-level there drops to a normal and exciting level. i didn't like it a lot but deep down i wasn't very happy going in the rains either. it takes away the fun off the sunny beach with white sand. and in a way it was good too because i might bump into alice who, i guess, is going next weekend.

learning new motor skills is hard. and when those motor skills are popularly known as salsa, it seem to be all the more hard, embarrassing and not interesting. but i have paid up fees for the monthly classes in advance and i would try not to waste my money :D

dharamshala and mcleodganj are very much on card next month until and unless the schedule for something that i am waiting for don't clash with my trip schedule. i won't tell what that something is [because that is a super-secret :p].

(c) commercial internet

i don't know how many of you know how much money is now involved in internet business but i tell you there is a lot.

no, it is not just because a lot of data flows while downloading ad uploading. well, yea lots of data does flow and it is also one of the most important reasons but what i am trying to talk about here is the content on the interface and not the bits on the layer underneath.

the most popular method of generating money from a website is still the most orthodox. it is advertising. your brand-name is popular, businesses take notice and come to your shop and ask you to display their name along with your brand-value and pay you in return. but in the internet world, how do someone find you lost in the plethora of websites. that's where search-engine comes in and they display most popular websites on the top of the results. and how do we ask the search engine to display our brand-name instead? that is the job of internet marketing consultants or search engine marketing consultants

same is the case with the blogs. if you write blog just for your personal satisfaction, it is totally fine but if you want to make money blogging then you have to find these consultants who can suggest you how to make your blog atleast visible within first 100 or 50 or lesser number of search engine results. the technique is called SEO [search engine optimisation].

(c) interesting little tools and ideas

i always thought it is just we people who are at their wits ends when looking for suitable and in-our-budget gifts when we have to attend some formal celebrations like weeding, anniversary, birthdays or for that matter anything which calls for a gift along with your presence at the premises.

what i didn't know was that in US gift consultation/suggestion is a huge industry in itself where they suggest you appropriate gifts for suitable occasions depending upon the receiver's relationship to you, his/her age group, income group [and maybe sexual preference groups too ;)]. i didn't knew that they referred to gifts as favors. i mean we take the word gift literally and tend to use it for all the occasions. well, suggesting cheap wedding favors is an industry there which can have great future in india too.

along with this i also fell upon fish finders. I guess due to the huge consumption of fish in foreign markets, fishes are fast doing the disappearing act from the planet earth's biggest swimming pools. so these innovative firangis have come up with these cute little tools called fish trackers or fish finders. they are some kind of hand-held devices and, i suppose, tell you the location of fishes while you are sitting in the leisure room of your $3 million state-of-the-art yatch. i don't know how they work though :p

half of our office is shifting to new premises in noida. i am happy for that but also unhappy because our department would be shifting later. the best part about the new office is that they have amazingly comfortable chairs. i always think that the office room reception chairs should not be the only chairs which are supremely comfortable as the employee productivity rises when his back is not aching.

(c) blogging is the way to go

i sometimes wonder why blogging has grown such popular.

the main reason behind web-logging [blogging as it is popularly referred to as] is that it gives people a kind of guilty pleasure in baring their lives, heart, mind, bodies, souls before virtually [and literally virtually] whole world. human nature is like that it wants to speak and show and at the same time it hides and shuts. we all have experienced it and know deep down in our hearts that we are tempted by everything that is supposedly a taboo for the human cultural society at some point of time in our life.

but at the same time we as humans are a fearful lot. we want to break the taboos but we still want to be happy and not crucified for breaking them. we want to live white lives.

blog is a medium where we can do a fraction of what our unspeakable desires. we can abuse, we can confess, we can be explicit - sexually or socially, we can be violent and we can make money blogging too. yea, you can make money blogging and many of you might have already done it or might be doing it. a way of doing money blogging is visiting the link and applying with your blog address and another much popular way is by installing ad-sense which is a google product on your blog/website. but if you are opting for the former than do not forget to quote my email address as the referrer.

so coming back the the matter of baring yourself, i guess that is facilitated due to the fact that blogs let us remain anonymous for the world at large. we can be anonymous, pose as a woman when a man and pose as a man when a woman. but the point is half of everybody who has access to net seems to be blogging and helping themselves.

the love and its riders

i have always loved stories which have delhi in their background

and as you all might be knowing, i am reading khushwant singh's delhi these days. i completed a very solemn sounding chapter today. it was mostly a collection of supposed monologues by bahadur shah zafar and nihal singh. it is amazing to know how beautiful has delhi always been and moreover how rich has been its history and after all that how many times has it been attacked, exploited, and even razed to near-ashes. but this beautiful place has never given to total annihilation.

the next book on my agenda is "the company of women" by khushwant singh, again ;) [i was never really inclined to read khushwant singh but after reading the way he describes women through his writings, i really can't give up on his most controversial piece ;)]

btw, the plan of river-rafting in rishikesh has been postponed due to incessant rains.

a list of wishes

i haven't been out of delhi, this year. it does not shock me becasue travelling a lot has never been on agenda. but the starting of this year brought a list of places that i dearly want to visit this year. the list goes below:-

1. vaishno devi
2. rishikesh - rafting
3. golden temple
4. thailand [now it is changed to edinburgh after i got an invite :D but no tickets though :p]
5. mcleodganj
6. valley of flowers

hope i make 100% of the list. will keep you updated with the increasing or the constant number of wishes fulfilled :D

and also, i want 256 MB memory stick pro for my cybershot s60 which will take the bar up by atleast 4 folds

:D

an important movement - blank noise

project - blank noise

i feel that there are a few chinks in their philosophy and i don't agree with everything that they have to say but it is a very important crusade that they have taken up and which i feel like supporting very strongly.

the gone and coming weekend

i don't know if it is the magical spring that has taken over delhi or what but females are looking as hot as they do in chilly winters in delhi. we were accosted by this fact when prashant and me were strolling around sector 18 [that's supposed to be the most crowded of all the places here in noida]. prashant wasn't too keen on leching around like we generally do becasue according to him there was no point having a hunderd in bush than a couple in each others' hands [arms ;)]. although i think so sometimes too but my point [at this moment] is, well :D, that something is better than nothing. ;)

got plans to go river-rafting in rishikesh this coming saturday. :D :D :D

anybody interested in tagging along is most welcome and required to drop in an email.

this tag post is dedicated to alice

'i dont do tags' is now cliche enough to find me an excuse of doing one :p

by/from/for alice :D

8 different points of one's perfect lover:-

1. should laugh a lot
2. should take and make and understand criticism
3. should be into reading
4. should know how to surprise and love them too
5. should be creative and demand creativity
6. must be respectful to and tolerant of elders
7. zilch ego
8. absolutely mind-blowingly sexy with klum or schiffer or taylor esq figure and an experimenting cat ;-)

lol

can accomodate a couple of more such points but i guess it says 8 and not 80 or anything :p

'i won't tag' is again another cliche now a days so

i tag you

(c) better investment decisions

it being a marriage season and looking at the increasing gold prices i would say that it would have been a good investment decision if i would have bought some gold.

i mean it is better than investing in the share market. at the end of the day you can atleast gift it to your loved one, even if it is not giving your great monetary returns and get great returns in form of abundant love :p so buy gold bars, it is better than buying shares :D

partial (c) i am waiting for your responses

i have made some changes in my blog today. some of these changes are visible and some of them are invisible. they are major technical in nature. there maybe some content wise too.

i would love it if you respond to them. and in case you want to send flowers to me in form of rewards then you surely can too. ;)

:D

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