i am a bit undecided

i've been unhappy for varied reasons

and

i've been happy for varied reasons

too, at the same time

contexts for being

unhappy:-
1. people
2. rules

happy:-
1. dollars
2. teenagers

[this{above} is an incomprehensible, irrelevant, senseless posts that it can be but the point is that i am torn between my tries of refraining from creating sad content on my blog and speaking whatever i want to about how i feel about things]

thinking about thinking about a [the] friend

what happens when you hurt a friend

1. your salary appraisal is nothing to rejoice about
2. you are not able to attend twice in a year party
3. you feel wretched whole evening
4. there is this dilemma which starts ringing your head - your fault or not?




i hope i feel better tomorrow morning
[you do not want to say but then you do want to say - sorry sweetheart]

someone special

there is this charm about some girls that whatever they say makes you feel special. i mean you feel you are one of a kind guy, the most special [asshole] that ever existed in her life. and you keep on feeling so even when she goes on busting your balls one after another [i mean i know she won't have much to bust after her second shot ;) :p].

i don't know if i am trying to write a serious post, but this urge of sounding it stupid is just overwhelming me. there is this friend of mine who comes up with these accounts of how this girl has come and gone [yea, he is not letting her go] from his life and then thus my post. but because i want to be not cruel to my friend do i want to write it such that it don't sounds frivolous.

i am pissed off over something else now, can't continue this post

will smith is here

will smith is one dude i really like. i mean these hollywood guys have some charm about them, but will smith is different. he seems really nice not just as a star but as a person too. his mannerisms are confident and graceful yet light and friendly.

he is in india these day [i don't know if he is still here at this moment] but heard that he gave an interview to ndtv. i couldn't see it but it must have been good.

nice, v nice.

better looking human male specimen

after reading what cow had to say about people and how they dress up and how they look, i am tempted to write about how a human male specimen should look like to be branded as good looking [hot].

so let me list what i think would qualify someone as better:-

1. flat tummy
2. good pectorals
3. slim but musclar biceps

other than these essential requirements i think there are some desirable characterstic too, like:-

thin trunk
good height

would you want to add something to this?

partial (c) birthday gift that i owe

preetu is asking for diamond earrings

u know, i din't gift her anything on her b'day :p

i din't even take her to rang de basanti, i myself din't go...

(c) all these kind of days

i heard that the days start 5 days prior to the valentines day. i mean they are like rose day, chocolate day, friendship day etc. etc.

with that i recall that i got text on atleast 3 of these days from this girl who i just can't understand what she wants. she texts me and then when i call or text her back to meet up, she comes up with some crazy excuse. crazy.

by the way, sometimes around is mother's day and then is there is anything called mother's day flowers?

my differentiation of modes of photography

to me [a layman] there are two types of photography. one, where a layman photographer like me tries to click either beautiful subjects or those subjects which are [seem] philosophically beautiful, for example this. and then there are professional photographers who take normal or mundane things look beautiful [with the help of their usage], for example this.

talking about photography i can recall that people are beautiful in rajasthan. i mean, when i went to udaipur in december, and when we went for excursion, i saw plenty of men and women who had very nice facial cuts. and these people were from those very remote villages. now i know what i would click when i go back to remote rajasthan.

criticism vs judgement

i can't comprehend why some people don't understand the difference between judgment and criticism.

i myself don't like judgmental statements because somehow i feel that they lack the intent of doing good to the person judged. but criticism can be healthy. now take this, three of us were standing near the reception desk when that female went across. she had a new pair of extremely skin hugging trousers on. i mean we all would see her everyday multiple times but today the trousers were not only underlining but also accentuating the hidden talent.

now coming to the point of this post; thus one of us said - what! i never knew she had such lovely piece of a*s [yaar, cmon now i have to censor some words somewhere in my posts sometimes]. the other one quipped, she the new dirty girl of our office. this remark immediately put me off. the other guy was just giving us his critically appreciative comments but this other creep went on to judge the persona of hers based upon his observations. i hate that. although i don't say that i never judge people but i refrain from knowingly judging people.

14th Feb

today is valentine's day.

everybody is making blog posts. [for example - casa & jups]
everybody is making money. [for example - archies & PVR]
everybody is making out. [for example - ...err :p]

what am i doing?
getting myself screwed by this unending torture of installing php with Apache on my redhat ES box which actually is not getting installed and logs are not telling aything good. but the point is i am outta date and so is jups which means i am as good as her and many other such chicks. thus i am happy ;)

:D

a very very very happy b'day

a very very very very happy b'day to my preetu, i love you

happy happy happy b'day

are we all reaching the unevitable?

we humans are reaching that point in the evolution cycle where we have to go to start afresh.

i fear that we are all walking towards a muslims vs world war. we are increasingly knowingly or unknowingly doing things that are [mis]directed towards muslims as a whole. latest being this caricature thing. i mean even i don't like it when they depict Ganesha image on some chic sandals by some dior worn by some klum on a world stage [it is not a stage geometrically speaking though :p]. but let's look at the bigger picutre.

first, american alliance led [undue or not] aggresion towards them in the mid-east and north africa and now this caricature thing.

i just hope that i live long enough to celebrate by 60th b'day with my folks and all my school-chums, college-chums, work-chums, blog-chums and other chums :D

a confession to make after all

today i completed 'a year in merde' and at the end of this process i have a confession to make.

i enjoyed clarke's on the face innuendo and other direct form of [no, it is not at all pervert or such] comic literature and his endless account of shagging females innumerable times but towards the end when he speaks of this half-indian girl who the protagonist beds on his first pre-date, i was taken aback and i din't enjoy it [a lot, :p]. i mean i knew that the female was more french that indian but somehow my indian prejudice or my cliched belief in audacious indian female mentality kept me from believing that an indian girl can not be open to such accounts. i know i am being what i don't like to be - subjective.

i have been busy

strangely, last two days have been busy. :D

you heard it right, i've been busy at office for last two days :D. reason, i have migrated to linux full-time at work. i don't work on windows anymore at work. although i have still kept windows on dual boot but i have migrated my bookmarks, my email, secured shell [and never an issue even earlier] and else. and i am reaching that stage where i don't have to get back to windows in any case. the only concern that remains is ms-office. but i hope open office will take care of that too. regarding watching movies and all, everything that can be viewed in windows can be views in linux [at a much higher resolution which i wont mind ;)]. but there is still a lot to learn.

sometimes it's very pleasant to watch people genuinely smiling. that other day i went to railway station and i was noticing people smiling at the sight of those they were waiting for. even the people who were being waited upon smiled. those smiles were true [sometime when people you call friends are not true doesn't make a very happy situation. it is so even more when they try to justify their doings] and made me happy :D

are we doing the correct pronunciations?

"lingerie isn't pronounced the way we think it is at all

It's not 'lon-je-ree' or 'lon-je-rey'. It's lan-jree"

though prashant wasn't very amused with my revelation of this new find of mine. this brings me to what i am reading these days: 'a year in merde' by stephen clarke.

this brings me to the reaction of a friend of mine which went somewhat like, 'the book is nice read but it seems that the writer is obsessed with sex...' which brings me to the veil of hypocrisy that females don't seems to do away with. i am pretty sure that this friend would have totally enjoyed all the references to nudity or his accounts of shagging. and mind you, i have been through three fourths of the book and i have not found one instance where the author has described his carnal acts in an erotic fashion. i mean, all his elucidations have been funny and double-worded. it seems that they seem to dislike it [in public] no matter what veil you try to wrap it under. they won't be frank [true] with you and they would experience a sense of utter contentment over the fact that they have been conferred with the title of mother mary the third the moment you drop your decision of arguing to save yourself from the uneasiness of fretting as the result of the bout of [foreseen and unseen] irritation.

but the point is that there is no point pondering over this issue because females will be females and their hypocrisy at best could be vanity.

but this novel is a funny read nonetheless.