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29 September 2006

om v/s girls

after more than a week of melancholy [don't kill yourself for the want/desire of something that was never yours], i am rising again :D [nearly salvaged my blog, but only after implementing some strategic level changes - will tell more about them later]

om is down in dumps with apparently lack of water

it seems om figure more frequently in my blog than all the females together. shameful performance on my part, indeed. so let us try to change the graph from this post itself.

what i don't like [regarding girls, ofcourse :p]
1. i really don't like abusing females [except for very very rare 'bitch' or 'salli']
2. i don't like thin females and i am very much appreciating the decision at milan from banning the anorexic models. i have always had liking [lust :D] for the appropriately plump [not fat] females [though i know i am destined to be married to a thin one :( ] and i second om's opinion of holdable size being almost a necessity :D
3. i don't like the indecisiveness of liking that comes with a sight of curvy but dumb female. i can't stand a blabbermouth too.

another thing that i don't like and which is not related to girls is:-
i don't like using the hindi word for potty. i don't even use "potty" and om uses the hindi word a lot and he drives a certain irritating pleasure by using that word.

26 September 2006

hate post

what do you do if you want to repent for something?

what do you do when you are sorry but don't want people to stop hating you?

how do you ensure that you don't hurt anyone [because people get hurt when you do something so that they are not hurt]?




question 2nd above is the most important one, anyone who cracks all three would be awarded crown of thorns or a meet with the legendary melancholy rohit :D

hey kid, can i join your 'the eternal unhappiness' group for some days? i need to rest.

songs

some songs are beautiful

why are some songs beautiful?
i think some of them are beautiful because:-

1. they convince you that the someone is more sad than you are.
2. you find yourself in the midst of the words and you think you can cling to them.
3. they fill the fissures that appear after you saw a mirage of excessive rejoicing.
4. they make you believe in everything that is a fallacy.

quoted:-


Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please...

~ every breath you take, police

25 September 2006

clarity

if you can't move someone's life, move out of it




so after lots of thinking going into it and getting out in a line of gyan, i shall give you all some news :D we finally moved into a new building. the company i have lived last nearly 3 years with has moved into a plush building and a plush floor. the looks are great, the feeling is beautiful.

i never take a stand. but your can't go on saving your conscience forever. and it is better if you see the world in black and white. either you are in or out. isn't easy, because grey-scale can be hugely complex [with huge lots of shades of black and white and what becomes from the concoction - grey; i hate grey, by the way ;) ] too but it is better if you keep it at that.

20 September 2006

the coffee shop

that coffee shop had an aroma of the old teak coupled with the boiling coffee which was creating a sensation so deep that anuj was not able to help himself detach from amlost intoxicating fragrance that sanjana had. he tried to dig deep inside the fat book which smelt almost like sanjana. or was it just her and anuj was making it up as the smell of the book? he looked her her, cautiously, 'cause he didn't want to make her cautious thus inviting affectations from her. she was not often affectatious but often had an effect from anuj's presence.

the coffee and the cake came.

there wasn't much talk because anuj didn't want to look at her and she hated him talking to him with his eyes downcast. it was just his eyes that defeated her, weaken her. otherwise she was the outright winner. she had all the control and she directed the train of thoughts and of life that transpired between them.

"there is something stuck on your lip", anuj couldn't help saying.
"where?" sanjana asked
anuj raised his left hand to point to the spot on her lip but couldn't help extend it till he entangled his fingers in the hairs that covered her ear and placed his palm on her cheek. sanajana's lips quivered. anuj touched her lower lip with his thumb which almost trembled at the contact with the warm lip and smudged the small dot of chocolate sauce into a streak.
"oh!" anuj exclaimed
"what happened?", sanjana asked as if to answer the question in his mind. the eyes met again for more than a brief moment and anuj pecked on her lip and their lips locked. he cudn't decide what was sweeter, the chocolate or the sensation.

18 September 2006

with or without you

prashant remarked yesterday

"upar wale ne ye ladki bi kya species banayi hai" [dunno what species named girl has the Lord created]

lol, so true...

and then i have been listening to this song since yesterday night

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

~ With or without you by U2 [lyrics from lyricsfreak]

sometimes it is so simple that it is complex.

i guess a lot depends on what kind of personality you have. sometimes you can't stop yourself even when you know there is nothing to gain and in the process you go on loosing till the time you can't loose anymore.

16 September 2006

the lips

they are not lips
the pink deceptive
the satan's agents
that wont bargain
for your soul

14 September 2006

a dedication

girls simply rock

the day they are back into your life, after an interval of say 3 days or 3 months, you feel you have some motive to be present on this earth.

single and available or married and invalid - they make you bow down, get down and everything while you are on your knees.

so this post goes out for you, baby

thanks for shining ;)

:D

steve irwin

it is a shame that i find all the time and space on my blog to crib about mush-fest and about getting ridiculed and everything that is at the end of the day waste of my life.

if i have to be unhappy about something then it should be the loss of steve irwin - the crocodile hunter who actually wouldn't have ever hunted a single croc in his life for the wrong reasons. he died in a freak accident while shooting underwater. everyone in my home was sad for him. my day was ruined when i learned about his demise.

steve was a real hero.

13 September 2006

the movies

two very special hindi movies that have been treated very differently are:-

jo jeeta wohi sikander [an aamir khan gem]
kabhi haan kabhi naa [a shahrukh khan special]

both have amazing music to their credit

i was just watching jo jeeta wohi sikandar while having my dinner. this movie has a raw quality about itself which makes your heart skip a beat, make you laugh and be nostalgic. best part being the relationship between the two brothers and the race at the end.

kabhi haan kabhi naa, a srk movie, i love it because of the special ending that it has. the protagonist is a loser, total loser - loser at home, loser at school, at love. but he is better than anyone in his own special way.

it is really great on part of bollywood to create these gems in between all the usual crap.

10 September 2006

exodus

i completed exodus an hour back. it was a 600 page mammoth. i have been quoting from it too...

till now i never really thought about jews other than that they were a poor lot who had to go through hitler's concentration camps just because some of their ancestors did something very bad to jesus. and that they live in israel and the tiny country is damn good at screwing evil muslims in their own territory.

exodus introduced me to the re-birth of israel, as they call it. it gave a lot of information and satiated many questions that arose after reading it. all but one, why exactly have jews been killed and treated so badly by christians and muslims historically?

it was such a sad book at some places that at other times tragedies stopped hurting. it is like we no more consider bombings by terrorists shocking here in india. there are a lot many things to say but i have to say just one thing at this moment.

we so easily take love & life for granted.

we all should read exodus if we really want to understand the value of both of them. i have to quote 3 pieces too which i will do, maybe, in some following post(s).

03 September 2006

the beautiful rain

most of the people must know by now that i don't really love rains. and even when it is raining beautiful i like to stay indoors and look at the beauty of it from the room or the balcony. i even click pictures sometimes. but i would rather stay indoors then venture out. but i realised something yesterday. i kind of realised why they relate rains with romance. when you are with someone whom you are fond of, the rains don't seem cold and the lights blink through the lights and the surroundings smell sweet.

the drops that touch your skin sensitize you to the presence of the other person.

i have always loved the seasons of delhi. i love both its major seasons, the hot summers and the chilly winters. i have always associated these seasons with the passion they have and they reflect in the way i think i am. i love the bright sunshine of june sun which almost takes toll on your energy and seem to suck it with a passion. and my favorite, winters, they just make you long for your lover in an intense fashion. and now i have a very intense reason to associate with rains.

Ari was filled with desire to take her in his arms and hold her, but he did nothing and said nothing.


~ Leon Uris, Exodus

01 September 2006

now a rocking question

to compensate for the unhappiness that i propagated by shunting the queries in the last post, a rocking question for you all:-

what do you do when you don't want to love someone?

the options that come to my mind:-
1. pay attention to your neglected spouse ;)
2. have paid/unpaid sex
3. work for loser colleagues
4. watch porn and jack off
5. eve-tease and get beaten blue
6. watch the top 10 witch horror movies [those ones in which the girl you love turns into a demon and sucks your blood from your guts]
7. use up the stocked liquor in your personal bar and stock it to the maximum for the next day
8. shun anything creative like writing, sketching, poetry [and refer to point 4]

now your turn