what is it?

i know it is a kind of risk writing the kind of piece that i am going to write below, but for the sake of answers...

what, i mean what exactly is it about female skin that does to men what it does?

i mean even at 10 feet apart it sensitises you. hey this is a question with a very technical perspective. i mean there are other things that have skin. take for example brownie, a very good looking feline pet of my neighbor's. great skin, although with huge amount of hairs. let alone feline or non-humans, take for example men. bearable, at best. or let alone everything. take up those beautiful beautiful babies in J&J advertisements. even they don't hold the magic ;)

so "what" is it?

old crap

i should not be writing this post. for 3 reasons:-

1. i have explained these things to myself and made myself understand these things earlier.
2. my friend would be angry.
3. i am exposing myself and i absolutely hate it if not abhor it.

don't expect and don't ask why especially a girl. because these things make u weak. make u, as prashant says, emotionally dependent and then the dependence bites you.
i am training myself not to expect. i mean i would expect to touch a chic but would not expect myself to expect her to feel for me. i mean it would be an incentive if she does but i would treat that absolutely as an incentive because if i do and if she don't then it would bite.

now after all the waste crap that i have blurted above, i would list the advantages:-

1. makes me a better person, "in-control" and thus the ideal bachelor (emotionally at least) ;)
2. makes me a less-hurt person
3. makes me a popular person :D:D (somehow derived from advantage number 1 - but this one has some naughty connotations :D:D)

five

i think i can't ever grow up. i still feel irritated and i still am confused over things about life that i have been confident about getting under my belt. but then i guess it is how it is. stranger is confused too. but i guess kids nowadays are smart. they figure out thing fast. i guess she has started expecting things out of life and here is where the problem lies. you start asking "why's" and then start expecting their answers too.

it is monday morning but today i am feeling sleepy.

saturday night prashant gifted me five point someone by chetan. i completed it yesterday night. a very nice masala (had everything - buds, booze, paranthas, scooter rides, movies at priya and the darling) story. i liked it because technically a) it was written in simple language and the writer dint seem to aim for man booker prize for his story through his ornamentalistic rosy writing b) it was set in delhi so i identified with the places and the life and the girl ;-) and students and else...

philosophically - it was simple and beautiful. it was about a guy, his 2 buddies and his girl. the relationship between guys was so kool. and the romance was so uncomplicated yet messed up. you can completely identify with ways of the girl and the friends. you just seem to pine for such beautiful friends (even when you have some) and want to be into such a beautiful relationship with a girl. i liked the honesty about everyone and everything.

still

another 55
technically correct
this one is the closest to me :D


It had been 5 years… their eyes met. They still feel the surge. ego or not she knew he still loved her like hell and she still loved him like hell. He knew she still loved him like hell and he still loved her like hell. And they were both married

to their respective partners.

the dose

another 55. this time technically correct. and dedicated to the great 55 teller, casa:-


the dose was deadly. As always she had to just offer that cup of tea to her husband. She would inherit 200 million. the plan sounded so good to her ears that even her usual vodka tasted better today.

Post mortem revealed poison found in her personal drawer to be the cause of her suicide.

happy

i am feeling better now. i was feeling very ill at head yesterday. some little things happened today that made me feel better.

had a small chat with a friend today. she told me that both her parents have fallen ill and she is very unhappy and no one is there to help. her brother is away at the moment. i mean look at her and then look at me. i am prbably unhappy cuz i am feeling lonely cuz i don't have any mate when all my friends have one (or more :p) to love, talk, play around with. crappy, too crappy.

then i saw the photos which prashant has uploaded. pics make you happy by letting you relive those happy moments. he gave those pics titles. and some titles made me happy. i am giving titles to some of those pics myself... here are some:-

-> 2nd jump from the cliff by pooja. this babe had some guts. it was not just cuz of her this 2nd jump but her attitude. my bow to her




-> firnagis will always be firangis. awsome backflip dive by amiad (he is from Israel)



-> renu... sultry...



-> missing renu in the pic, she is clicking this one



-> i make the best photos of prashant :D



-> very colorful



-> sweet



-> lucky aditya has got a nice girl for himself, shubika. too bad, she was the one most physcially injured on the trip



-> read his expression... lol



-> the smiling team



-> the brightness of this pic brings smile to me

for more detailed memoir of the trip please visit prashant's post

rafting :D

you can(should) not have an subjective opinion about people but you can have a subjective opionion about life. if your opinion has an universal appeal, you can even be a very popular person.

i feel everyone in this world gets equal from life (but while i say that i don't beleive in it myself. i mean sometimes i feel a person is making more money, a person never gets out of girls or relationships). it is just that the equlity is equated in a different way. it might be possible that a friend of mine who has the same knowledge quotient as me cracks those exams without studying but i don't (i know a lame example). or another friend of mine who is never short of females in or out of a realtionship who can fall for him. but then i know these friends would not be having something that i have. these things of mine could be subtle. but then i again go back to disbeleiving this subtelity. and also this is a very arguable topic. and someone being successful in something has too many factors attached.

yesterday i went river rafting. total fun. scare that gives you the feeling that you can share with only those who have experienced it at the same level. this was my 2nd time but first time with a stopover at a beach for lunch and with rapids in really good shape and an accident. :D. i won't talk about the accident becasue i feel when i talk about it it takes up more space then the expanation about the actual fun part - the rapids. no one was fatally hurt.

this was my rafting team. from left - Shubhika, Aditya, Sunoj, Pooja, Prashant, Renu, Amiad (he is from Israel)

quick updates

i was writing a huge post about my hard-disk recovery plan yesterday when my browser thread crashed and was pretty bugged. it is very hectic nowadays so here are some quick updates:-

suggestions:-
-> support open-source computer software. they are
1. free of charge (then you don't have to user chori ka maal - pirated software)
2. much more stable

examples:-
Web-browser - Firefox - you can directly start the download by clicking here(4.3 MB).
Operating System - Fedora(a linux flavour) - i am not giving the direct download link because with Linux you need to read.

-> always take backups of your important data.
-> ask Google the same question before you ask the one you think knows the answer better. chances are Google will give you a more comprehensive answer.

reminder:-
-> i need to acquire 1 skill - Swimming, before anything else. Driving is another skill you should have.

how

how can you fall in love when you are into such a stressful job, of monitoring service 24x7, as mine? ;) :D

i know everybody would agree with me that one can not. then how in the world can they show that guy whose job is a bit more stressful than mine watching stars in her eyes. how can she sing beautiful songs and how can they smile for each other and how can they both embrace each other. i mean in a situation where being happy is an achievement, how can they nurture such feelings?

i was questioning a thing about yahaan (the jimmy shergill and that cutie' finding love with kashmir insurgency in background movie) in one of my earlier post. today i saw about 45 minutes of that movie in which love seem to overwhelm all the 'stress', unhappiness and fear. and without questioning all the technical glitches that i could have found in that movie which would have betrayed my genuine appreciation for the embarrassment (you can't beat that when you watch a genuine and classically portrayed love scenery) that i felt, i just questioned the bloom...

so i just want to ask those stressed out people out there, is this possible?

not quite 55

i was kind of tagged by casablanca for the 55-word thingy but i wasn't too keen on the editing. so i posted the following (but would still try to complete that 55-word thingy):-

‘hey hon…, richa’, he said, almost realizing that it has been 9 years since the day she got married and their eyes conversed. He had checked out with mutual friends that she is doing good, a couple of months back. He always did.

‘hi rohit, how r u?’, she said. she couldn’t decide whether she should feel happy or not.

‘I aint bad, he said. ‘got married last week…. And how’s your husband…?’

‘he passed away last month…’

wishes

a very very happy birthday to a very special friend of mine...

many many happy returns of the day, sweetie :D

retrospect

i don't have anything to write but i have the urge... i don't know if i have something in my subconscious mind or if i am just used to write something on my blog? whatever it is...

i guess indian laughter challenge is a sick program. i just happened to see 2 minutes of this thing and i was surely convinced that i won't ever like this slapstick comedy done in no taste at all.

i want to go rafting, but something's stopping me. i guess it's because of the silent psychological tussle with the person who i would like to go with is having with me. i want to ask the person what is it but i don't know why i can't ask? i have had this issue always. i can't ask people.

i went to orkut after a long time. i guess with these online repositories of people, you have to be patient and persistent. of course 'persistence pays' but with these places like hi5, orkut, i mean the online communities thing, you may get what you are looking for but you have to invest some sweat into them.

whenever i get time and if i don't want to get into a regular book, i start with my favorite 'short history of everything' from anywhere i think i left it last. it is an absolute gem of a book. i mean anywhere you start it, after 10 minutes, you will be a learned man.

this last weekend was a boring one. i did absolutely nothing. i went nowhere except for 2 hours in the evening to sector 18 on saturday as sujit and ned came. other than that it was absolute waste of time. i hate it. i mean i don't feel good if i don't do anything. i mean a tit bit of work is always called for. i could have atleast went to my bank and... oh gosh, i still haven't submitted that cheaque.

i should resolve that i wouldn't be wasting my next weekend like this one.